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THE MINGLING OF NATURES To move a single step we must have
power. To see we must be exalted. Not to
be lost in vision we must learn the geography of the spirit and the many
mansions in the being of the Father. If we concentrate we shall have power. If
we meditate we shall lift ourselves above the dark environment of the brain. The
inner shall become richer and more magical to us than the outer which has held
us so long. How may I allure to this meditation those who see only by the light
of day; who, when their eyes are shut, are as cave-dwellers living in a
blackness beneath the hills? The cave of the body can be lit up. If we explore
it we shall there find lights by which the lights of day are made dim. I perhaps
to build on had some little gift of imagination I brought with me into the
world, but I know others who had no natural vision who acquired this,
and by sustained meditation and by focussing the will to a burning-point, were
raised above the narrow life of the body. Being an artist and a lover of visible
beauty, I was often tempted from the highest meditation to contemplate, not
divine being, but the mirage of forms. Yet because I was so bewitched and was
curious about all I saw, I was made certain that the images which populate the
brain have not always been there, nor are refashioned from things seen. I know
that with the pictures of memory mingle pictures which come to us, sometimes
from the minds of others, sometimes are glimpses of distant countries, sometimes
are reflections of happenings in regions invisible to the outer eyes; and as
meditation grows more exalted, the forms traceable to memory tend to disappear
and we have access to a memory greater than our own, the treasure-house of
august memories in the innumerable being of Earth. When minute analysis is made
of images in the brain, those foolish fables about memory and imagination no
longer affect those who begin this quest, and we see how many streams are
tributary to our life. All I have said may be proved by any as curious about
things of the mind as I was, if they will but light the candle on their forehead and examine the
denizens in the brain. They will find that their sphere is populous with the
innermost thoughts of others, and will more and more be led by wonder and awe to
believe that we and all things swim in an æther of deity, and that the least
motion of our minds is incomprehensible except in memory of this: "In Him
we live and move and have our being." Analysis of the simplest mental
apparition will lead us often to stay ourselves on that thought. Once in an idle
interval in my work I sat with my face pressed in my hands, and in that dimness
pictures began flickering in my brain. I saw a little dark shop, the counter
before me, and behind it an old man fumbling with some papers, a man so old that
his motions had lost swiftness and precision. Deeper in the store was a girl,
red-haired, with grey watchful eyes fixed on the old man. I saw that to enter
the shop one must take two steps downwards from a cobbled pavement without. I
questioned a young man, my office companion, who then was writing a letter, and
I found that what I had seen was his father's shop. All my imaginations--the old
man, his yellow-white beard, his fumbling movements, the watchful girl, her colour,
the steps, the cobbled pavement--were not imaginations of mine in any true
sense, for while I was in a vacant mood my companion had been thinking of his
home, and his brain was populous with quickened memories, and they invaded my
own mind, and when I made question I found their origin. But how many thousand
times are we invaded by such images and there is no speculation over them?
Possibly I might have made use of such things in my art. I might have made a
tale about the old man and girl. But if I had done so, if other characters had
appeared in my tale who seemed just as living, where would they have come from?
Would I have again been drawing upon the reservoir of my companion's memories?
The vision of the girl and old man may in reality have been but a little part of
the images with which my brain was flooded. Did I then see all, or might not
other images in the same series emerge at some later time and the connection be
lost? If I had written a tale and had imagined an inner room, an old mother. an
absent son, a family trouble, might I not all the while be still adventuring in
another's life? While we think we are imagining a character we may, so marvellous are the hidden
ways, be really interpreting a being actually existing, brought into psychic
contact with us by some affinity of sentiment or soul. |
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